Communication with JC has been close to nil. In fact, last week we spoke, nope I take that back, we chatted once. He has pulled away from me.

Right before I went to visit him in Orlando, JC would call 3-4 times a week. In our last conversation, he asked me to slow down. “Neyda, slow down” he said. Slow down? Slow down at what, slow down to what? I never divulged how or what I was feeling to him. I never put into words what was stirring inside me of. HA, I thought…was he telling himself to ‘slow down’ by simply putting into words what he was feeling and directing it towards me?

Just thinking out loud...not really looking for answers...